Love your self first!

OMG!  It has been a entire week since i posted....Did you think i gave up my workouts?? ahhh NOPE!!!

Although I was emotionally stressed (love is just a crazy thing) my workouts and my diets remain the same, I'm actually more focus than when i started because my results so far are amazing so everyday I wake up and feel better than the day before.

I decided to shift my main FOCUS to my  Personal Development and even though the week was just rough(my heart is broken)  I see the light shining thru. Any who! Below are a list of the books I'm reading or read in the past month. I've gave up my TV for reading and to be honest I do miss my favorite channel (Discovery on ID).

OK so!

• Awaken the Giant Within: How to Take Immediate Control of Your Mental, Emotional, Physical and Financial Destiny by Anthony Robbins http://www.tonyrobbins.com/ 
• The Purpose Driven Life. What on Earth am I here for by Rick Warren http://rickwarren.org/
• 21 Days to Master Success & Inner Peace by Dr. Wayne W. Dyer http://www.drwaynedyer.com/
• The Magic by Rhonda Byrne http://thesecret.tv/themagic/
• Go Pro- 7 Steps to becoming a Network Marketing Professional by Eric Worre http://networkmarketingpro.com/

I do my best to read 10 pages of each book every day, unless the book requires to read a chapter per day.

Whatever you do LOVE YOURSELF FIRST!!...I know now what I've been doing wrong all these years!

“Some of the biggest challenges in relationships come from the fact that most people enter a relationship in order to get something: they're trying to find someone who's going to make them feel good. In reality, the only way a relationship will last is if you see your relationship as a place that you go to give, and not a place that you go to take. ”
― Anthony Robbins

T25 Double Friday Day 5

So i took Saturday off honestly i needed a break, my emotional state is not the greatest but i keep pushing myself!...I got caught up with my team today I did double Friday on a Sunday! :) I must say i felt like i was dying in the middle of it, i wanted to quit but Shaun T kept saying come on you can do this! and i did yeiiiiii!! I'm so happy i decided to this workout is only 25 minutes but it will make you sweat like a pig. I've been drinking my Shakeology 30 minutes before my workouts and i find that it gives me strength so i will continue to do so for the next five weeks unless of course i get sick. I'm down 6lbs this week so I'm super, super happy!! I haven't had any pain medication for my Fibromyalgia which is awesome! I've had some pain in my right arm but I've managed without medication the doc said i have arthritis in that arm.(Whatever)lol Anyway...I wish i could tell you how much i weight but im keeping that a secret until the end of my 90 days! I have to! I'm actually afraid to tell people how i weight because i don't look it but my butt alone is like 50lbs...Dominican butts!! Can you see the sweat!

My online dating disaster

Heyyy! I've been quiet for a while...

In my silly attempt to meet someone and get out of the single life a decided to experiment with online dating (boy! Oh boy!) a friend recommended a site called POF ( plenty of fish) now the name alone sound silly, considering i don't know how to swim in those type of websites.

24 hours after signing up i had received almost 400 msgs, my first thought was waooo there are a lot of single people out there I'm not alone! The second thought was "these men are savages acting like fish when a bait is thrown"

The names the guys come up with are straight up Corny, funny and ridiculous here are a few that i laughed at:

-2busydoingme, well that right there is a turn off if soooo busy doing you when will you do me??? 
-mrwrongbutrite...is he confused? You either wrong or right,  he's one confused soul!
-Platanofrito...osea! Come on doesn't any more tackier or Dominican than that
-Acesfull...he cant spell his own name, shame on him!
-Sexxyazzd...really? Let someone tell you that you are sexy and he was not sexy at all!!
-Theycallmetheripper...is your name jack??? I'm thinking his name had something to do with a sex part...just thinking like a guy for a moment.

The list of bad names can go on....if i think of more, i will add.

The message below is the one of the many messages i received that had me with a confused expression as i read it.

This guys first msg said:

i was skeptical about the on line hookup thing but I let a friend convince me to try it out. My honest opinion is that the site is lame. Once in awhile you'll come across someone who's genuine but for the most part no ones who they say they are.

After a few lines in conversation he says:

I hope you have a sec so that I can explain. Although my profile says that I'm 35, I'm actually 40. I was with my ex wife for 24 yrs and in that time we had three beautiful children two of which are in college now. We met when we were kids and unfortunately we never learned how to be friends or even communicate for that matter, and because if that it caused me to see someone else

DID I MISS SOMETHING???


The pictures....omg!!!! See for yourself: Just a small sample.

                                                      I think he's trying to be Funny...FAIL!

                                       
                                              This guy reminds me of BLUES CLUES

                                          
                                          DUDE!!! for real?? Clean up your boogers Gross!!

                                                            
                                                                LOL!! that's all i could say!

                                           
                                  I think he's in the wrong site...or at least in the wrong side of it

                                           Now this guy looked little decent, but is that a freaking DOLLAR!!???

   PORKY PIG GONE WILD

           Maybe it was Halloween, but his arms look like those thin balloons when they get deflated

Well i  guess his other head is too busy

I figure i throw this guy in after that traumatizing show.... ummmm he so sexy

70 percent of profiles i read where looking for a down to earth woman, a best friend that can make them laugh, cook, clean ect ect...basically a maid...they should go to maids.com instead

Some are looking for a woman between 20 and 40, to me those men are bottom feeders they will talk to anything that talks to them, there is a huge difference in that age range, they just looking a little desperate.

Like 20 profiles where "single dads" is that the new pick up nowadays?? I'm wondering if they think having kids and being single is consider being a single dad?

A lot guys had pictures with cars that are probably not theirs, they just happen to walk by the car and said "hey this for my online profile chicks will definitely dig me"

The pictures in the mirrors where everywhere on the site although girls do it all the time and didn't think guys did it too.
A lot guys out there love to talk about the famous DUCK face picture, and they do it too the difference is that they look like a constipated duck, Suckers!!

There are plenty of shirtless man six packs, three pac, twelve pac, one pac, round pac and 2 pac (not the rapper)...they get an A+ for confidence but some of those pics should be illegal to look at, is traumatizing to the human eye.

Almost everyone lies in their profile but these guys where very creative liars, you can tell by reading it and getting a msg from them that they did not write their own profile.

 I left this one for last because it was so funny that i laughed for almost an hour.

This guy seem very genuine, he worked with kids and was very educated (all according to him), he was honest and loving and blah, blah, blah, blah, blah!....

Now tell me whats wrong with this picture...

all i have to say is that after this i deleted my picture and profile!!!....I was done.

Online dating is very common these days, my experience felt like i was at the bottom of the sea looking for a rare fish, that no one will ever find.

 I've decided to stick with the face to face, first impression type of thing... I'm picky on real life and i found that i was EXTREMELY picky online...Maybe i didn't try hard enough but i was on long enough to know Mr. Right for me is not behind a computer screen looking for me.

Now if you want to find an ugly man, this is the website for you...95% of the man on this page are just FUGLY...(fucking ugly), this site should actually call POUM (plentyofugly man.com)

I've come to one simple conclusion: I'm going to stay single longer than i thought!! PERO antes muerta que sencilla!...

Until the next one! I hope you like the post; thanks for reading!


 

Un Nuevo Amanecer

En 5 minutos serán las 3:30 am. Estoy despierta y no por gusto, sino por una fiebre de 102 grados que no me dejaba dormir. Estuve hablando con mi abuela, no sé si en sueños o alucinaciones por causa de la fiebre, pero si…era ella. Mi abuela me hace tanta falta, la extraño tanto…Le contaba a mi abuela como cada vez que tengo planes de algo bueno, algo interesante o algo que me servirá de descanso…Me pasa algo inexplicable. Le contaba a mi abuela que quería terminar el año en buena nota para que el 2010 nos trajera buenas noticias…Le contaba lo mucho que anhelo ser madre…Le contaba que extraño no tener cerca a mi hermanita…Le contaba lo mucho que sufre mi hermano por no tener a su hija cerca... En medio de todas mis quejas mi abuela me pasaba su mano por la cabeza, cosa que hasta el sol de hoy, solo ella pudo y podrá hacer. Me sentía tan aliviada. En ese momento dije…”A veces creo que Dios se olvida de mi, y entiendo que lo haga porque como creyente, Yo le he fallado”.

Mi abuela solo me miro y me dijo lo siguiente…”No importa cuántas veces le has fallado, no importa las veces que has querido volver a él y no puedes, no importan tus pecados, no importan tus defectos.Lo que importa es que su promesa sigue en pie. Y Dios está contigo dondequiera que tú vayas. Lo que importa es que crees en el, lo que importa es sientes esa inquietud en tu corazón, lo que importa es simplemente que lo amas. No te quejes de los problemas sin resolver, pero dale gracias a Dios por resolverlos. No le clames y lo busques solo cuando todo te sale mal, pídele fervientemente por lo que tienes, tuviste y quisieras tener. Todos los días cuando abras tus ojos repite lo que te dice Filipenses 4:13…TODO LO PUEDO EN CRISTO QUE ME FORTALECE….Y cree en las palabras que tus labios pronuncian, te garantizo que todo en tu camino se endereza poco a poco.”

Mi abuela se marcho como siempre lo hace después que hablo con ella. Pero sin embargo, faltando 5 para las 3:30 am....

“TODO LO PUEDO EN CRISTO QUE ME FORTALECE”