Thursday, July 23, 2015

La Fe de una madre con el corazon roto

My sis's inspirational words after burying her only son. Bonnie Stephanie La Nina Are Lauris Castillo La ShortyLa Nina...

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Friday, August 2, 2013

Pay it Forward Challenge

I walked into my favorite place to do my pay it forward challenge, Meet Denise, she was buying Coffee for herself and a friend. So I asked Denise, Do you mind if I buy you lunch today? She said are you sure i'm buying for a friend at work too and i said whatever you want!

I explained to her what i was doing and how i wanted to encourage my friends to do the same by following my lead and that's why i needed a picture, I told her even if she if I did not get a picture I was buying her lunch, she was hesitant because, She thought she didn't take good pictures, I took her Picture and complimented her; She looks lovely!...She said: "This is the best thing that has ever happen to me! My luck must be changing!" Then she asked what i did and I told her I encourage others to get Healthy and Fit. She was so happy, i couldn't help to walk to work with a smile and my heart was filled with Joy! I told Denise: Have Faith and Believe that's all the Luck you need!... #Payitforward

As I walked out I felt, My Faith and Believe is strengthening.

Tuesday, July 30, 2013

What if?

I stopped caring about the What If's....What if so and so doesn't like my picture, what if my pimples show, what if my teeth are too crocked, what if i'm not beautiful enough, what if someone sees my many (self) pictures and thinks I'm crazy...Guess what? I love me, my teeth are crooked, I'm so beautiful on the inside that my outside shines with beauty and YES I'M ABSOLUTELY CRAZY! about life, my kids, friends, music...I'm crazy about life in general. Last week it started to rain and for the first time since i was a kid I just stood still, smelled the rain and let it fall on my recently done hair and it was an awesome feeling. What if i wasn't here tomorrow? How will you remember me? Celebrate yourself! Celebrate life! I'm God's creation!

Thursday, July 25, 2013

Oatmeal, Honey and Milk Mask

Shakeology has been doing wonders to my skin, it looks so clear and clean, this morning I had my daily dose and decided to give myself a mini facial, you can never pamper yourself too much!

I used:

2 Tablespoons of Oatmeal
1 Table spoon of Honey
some milk not too much so it the consistency stayed sticky

There are tons of recipes online so can try, i didn't blend the oats i was being lazy. :)

I also use C. Booth Honey Almond Oil, I got this product on my Glossy Box and I'm totally in love with it, it smells so good, the skin stays so smooth is not heavy oil so it doesn't feel sticky! ( has the best price)

Here is the result:

Tuesday, July 23, 2013

Love your self first!

OMG!  It has been a entire week since i posted....Did you think i gave up my workouts?? ahhh NOPE!!!

Although I was emotionally stressed (love is just a crazy thing) my workouts and my diets remain the same, I'm actually more focus than when i started because my results so far are amazing so everyday I wake up and feel better than the day before.

I decided to shift my main FOCUS to my  Personal Development and even though the week was just rough(my heart is broken)  I see the light shining thru. Any who! Below are a list of the books I'm reading or read in the past month. I've gave up my TV for reading and to be honest I do miss my favorite channel (Discovery on ID).

OK so!

I do my best to read 10 pages of each book every day, unless the book requires to read a chapter per day.

Whatever you do LOVE YOURSELF FIRST!!...I know now what I've been doing wrong all these years!

“Some of the biggest challenges in relationships come from the fact that most people enter a relationship in order to get something: they're trying to find someone who's going to make them feel good. In reality, the only way a relationship will last is if you see your relationship as a place that you go to give, and not a place that you go to take. ”
Anthony Robbins

Tuesday, July 16, 2013

Motivation Tuesday

A promise is a promise

When i started reading this book last night I had no clue what it was about, it must have been a free download on my iTunes. I was tossing and turning so i open this book and said to myself "what gives let me just read 10 pages so i can fall asleep"
This book is SO good I read 51 pages, i could not put it down. The book tells the story of Kaye a mother who took care of her Daughter Edwarda, who was in Coma for 30+ years. This is based on a true story. Now you know how i feel about Ash being sick and how i feel about my mom so this book hit me hard. Check it out!! I'm such a believer that everything that in my life is God's work that i know that after the emotional call our Team had last night and the answer I got on my question GOD wanted me to read this.

Introduction by Dr. Wayne Dyer:

I have read many definitions of love. My favorite by far is quite simple: "…Love is the art of giving. It asks nothing in return." Using this as my working definition, you are about to read an authentic love story.

This is not a novel with characters who fall in love in a romantic fashion. This is not a story with a plot that winds its way through literary channels to a clever conclusion. What you hold in your hand is a book about unconditional love. Each page represents a real-life, day-to-day commitment to giving and serving in the highest sense of love that I can imagine.

I have made no effort to follow any rules of literary presentation. I did not resort to any "filler" material to lengthen the manuscript or to engage the reader in extraneous details of this remarkable story.

What I have done is to relate, as directly and simply as possible, the story of a level of giving to another human being that is unknown to most of us. It is my impression that when the art of giving becomes absolutely unconditional, as it is with Kaye O'Bara, we will come to know the meaning of this quotation from A Course In Miracles: "If you knew who walks beside you on the way that you have chosen, fear would be impossible."

I place the emphasis on the word knew. To know is to have the direct experience and to have banished all doubt. Kaye knows that she is not alone. She knows that her daughter is also participating in the way that she has chosen. This knowing has permitted Kaye to serve unconditionally for over a quarter of a century, and it has made visible the divine intervention of the Holy Family.

But even more than this is the fact that all of us who read of Kaye's devotion and unflappable service are enriched immeasurable.

In the context of love being the art of giving and asking nothing in return, we are all assured that this kind of love is not just for fiction writers or reserved for those who have been deified. This kind of love is here and now. It is taking place among us, while the rest of us go about the business of our daily lives.

The story of Kaye and Edwarda O'Bara is indeed a love story that transcends our own experiences of love. It reminds us to look within and see where we can give unconditionally.

I have written this book to fulfill my own commitment to giving unconditionally in my own life. Furthermore, it is my intention to introduce you to these divine people through the pages of this book, while simultaneously providing you with some insights on what you can learn from becoming aware of this story. And finally, it is my intention to remove the onus of debt that has choked at the life force of the O'Baras for the past quarter of a century, by having the royalties go directly to Kaye and Edwarda.

As you read this short book, be aware of the power of your prayers, as well as your compassion in helping out these sacred souls. As you extend this compassion toward the O'Baras, remember to do the same for everyone on our planet as well. This, to me, is the lesson of Edwarda's long silence- to teach all of us to extend love unconditionally in every corner of our world, and to do it without asking anything for ourselves in return. Perhaps as the world takes on this challenge, Edwarda's role as a victim soul will become complete. I pray it is so.

In love and light,
Dr. Wayne W. Dyer

Monday, July 15, 2013

Stay calm shakeology is here

Shakeology has changed my life! and the best Shakeology has a bottom of the bag 30-day, money back guarantee. If you don’t begin to see and feel the benefits of Shakeology within the very first month of using it, or you are not 100% satisfied for any reason, simply return the empty bag within 30 days for a full refund of the purchase price less s&h — guaranteed. What's there to loose but weight and sickness? Contact me for more info!

My booty alone weights 50lbs!

Someone get the camera away from her!!! (that's what my daughters will say)

My biggest demon

I have been battling my weight since i was a teenager, i felt like the fat girl in every group and like i didn't fit in, the guys always commented or like my "phat" ass.
Over the years i tried all sorts of diets and pills lost some weight here and there and i was "happy" at 150lbs for many, many years but something inside was struggling to be happy with the woman i saw in the mirror, I could be because our culture always expect you to be THIN, if you are not thin then something is wrong with you!
Growing up at every family gathering everyone would talk about how FAT "fulanita" was and how she was letting herself go and (i'm sure that was said about me as well),that does not mean the family didn't love love you it just means they think you are FAT and you should look a certain way. I guess is the Dominican culture and even though they think you are fat they cook so many fatty things. (that are delicious i must say)
When i gave birth to my first lovely daughter my weight remain the same, she was a preemie so i didn't gained much, with my second daughter i gained 70lbs which put me at 220lbs in three years i manage to go down to 180 and then my third daughter came and "luckily" I only went back to 220lbs again! I guess 220 has been my lucky number for years lol.

 In 2007 i was in a very dark place in my life, my kids father was leaving for younger woman, i had just given birth to our 3rd child, i went thru post postpartum depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts, i literally i wanted to die, the humiliation was too much for me to bare, i was FAT and i was a single mother of three kids! I remember being so angry that because he had told everyone i was FAT and disgusting that i cried every night for months and also remember one woman saying to me "you do not deserve him he is too handsome for you, you are fat"
 My anger led me to a destructive path, a friend was selling the famous "Brazilian" pills and I wanted a way out of my own body! she said these will make you skinny in a few months and they sure did!! I began taking these Brazilian pills which were prescribed by doctors in Brazil to extremely obese people, i started to walk around my lunch hour, I danced and did crazy exercises at home for 2 hours everyday; I only ate Activia, salad and chicken and drank lots of coffee and water and the weigh started to disappear and people finally started to like WHO i was, the new skinny girl, everyone was happy for me. People did not know that deep down inside of me was a woman that was bitter and mad at so many people.

 In 2008 I was so skinny people started to get concern (really!!!?????) I would get questions and comments like: "are you doing drugs?" "are you loosing weight to get him back?" "you should stop loosing weight your BUTT is gone" and these made me even angrier these were the same people that called me FAT! like really people get off my back! I WAS 125 lbs!

 In less than 6 months I had lost almost 100lbs, I was anemic, starving, emotionally gone I was a zombie acting like i was happy but in reality i was dying inside and that's when GOD gave me a series of wake up calls:

 NUMBER ONE: On January 25th 2008 my youngest daughter (it was her first birthday) had a Complex Febrile Seizure and was Unresponsive for 3 long days laying in a bed of ice to keep her temp from going up her temp was at 107, the doctors had no clue if she was going to make it, everyone around me was praying and i was busy blaming her dad for leaving us, i felt we were being punished.

NUMBER TWO: In December of the same year my oldest daughter was really sick and loosing a lot of weight, I remember calling my cousin one day and saying to her "They think Ashley has Leukemia, can you gather the family and let them know in case we need a Bone Marrow transplant". When the test results came back it turned out not to be Leukemia but she was still sick and for months the doctors couldn't figure out what i was wrong with her until her final diagnosis was Addison's Disease, i went online to research about this and the first website i came across was a memorial site and there was a story about a 16 year old girl that had past away from the illness and then i remember her doctor saying the condition was rare in kids and they barely made it to their teen years, I cried for months!

NUMBER THREE: with all of this going on I stopped dieting and the weight started coming back but i was still "happy" not being FAT, I was 140lbs when the worst thing I've experience happened at this point our condo was in foreclosure our boiler was broken so i resorted to my Dominican survival mode and started to boil water for my girls to take a bath; one day i was bringing the water up the stairs in a pressure cooker, it was boiling hot and i tripped all the water splashed in my face, arm and back; it hurt badly but my daughters were at the top of the stairs and i didn't want to freak them out so i did not cry, I grabbed my girls and rushed to the hospital (not sure why i didn't call 911) when i got there they looked at me and went to panic mode, I had 2nd degree burns and i looked like a monster from one of those scary movies. At the end of all the Morphine treatments and pills i had manage to gained another 50lbs HOWEVER i was a different woman less angry and more thankful for God's wake up call, I was still struggling with weight but not as much!

Thru it all i have never lost my faith in GOD, i question WHY, many times!! I thank him for making me strong enough to survive all his test. Everyone kept telling me i was Bewitched (me hicieron BRUJERIA) but when you have an unbreakable faith like mine no evil in this world can harm you.  

This story is true to its entirety so God is my witness!

I'm a product of GOD and it took me a while to find myself and I'm sure there are many other things to come but my faith will guide me thru them. Never give up!

The pictures below shows how much damaged i did to myself.


Just when the caterpillar thought it was over..........

Here goes nothing....I was scared to show this progress but part of my personal development is to stop being ashamed of my weight and how others see tadaaaaaaaaaaaaaa my two week progress T25, shakeology and eating healthy...I was comfortable at 200lbs for a long time and then i gained 22lbs in a matter of 4 months because of the medication...and that's when i hit rock bottom...My coach encourage me me to share this and as i said this morning in a post this to me means getting a A++ I feel liberated, I feel like crying because I was afraid of so much for so long and mostly had to do with what people thought of my appearance!...I'M NO LONGER IN FEAR OF THE WORLD! I choose to embrace my journey with God, my health & Fitness.

Focus T25 Week 3 Day 1

Holaaaaa is mondayyyyy!!!! Woohoooo!! So, I had a ok weekend nothing major really happened,I went to the city and kept thinking how wonderful it will be if i had a CHIMI or a MOFONGO! OMG!! I would close my eyes and picture myself stuffing my face to some delicious but very fattening dominican cuisine but i was strong super strong and and just ate mangos and coconut! LOL hey! the thought was actually better i closed my eyes and pictured myself at the beach con un coco de agua! Anyway! I'm super excited about my two week progress, i do have a picture but i've decided to save it for my end result post. Becoming a Beachbody Coach has really changed the way i think and feel about so many things, before i started my journey i would see a heavy set person and think like the rest of the world ("omg he/she is so fat, poor thing") But i was FAT too so WTH. Now i feel like reaching out, like hey i can help you, i mean i know i just started this, but my journey so far has been amazing and I know that this is my purpose to help others, I've always wanted too help others but i didn't know it was my true calling. This week will be amazing, i can already feel the JOY! hasta luego!

Wednesday, July 10, 2013

My very first challenge group! Starts August 5th...Join me!

Need to loose a few pounds and never find them??? I know how you can get rid of them for good!... I'm looking for 5 motivated individuals to join my challenge group..All you need is 25 minutes a day, 5 days a week and replace one meal a day with ‪#‎Shakeology‬. I will help you with the rest! My challenge group begins August 5th. Inbox for more details! Is never to late to get a sexier, healthier body!

Focus T25 week 2 day 3

So! i barely made it thru my workout today in the last 5minutes my legs felt like cement, i was struggling to move them thank god it was only 25mins but seriously Shaun T has gone mad BUT I LOVE IT!...

Good Morning :)

Good Morning!!! Woke up inspired...God answers our prayers but you have to open your heart and see thru his eyes the answer is there for you in the form of a person(what i call angels), I was having a hard time falling as sleep last night my heart was heavy due to a personal situation, i kept praying and saying to "please i just want to go to sleep, relieve me from the pain, it wasn't anger, it was just anguish; so i reached for my phone because at that point i was like Fkit i'm gonna go play a game until a fall asleep, then i opened my Facebook and there was my angel she has just written a post, so deep and so touching and there was GOD with the answer to my prayers!! Have a blessed day my friends this is part of her message: "Love with your soul and never compromise respect or dignity. We hold back our love because we are in need of love. Seek a church, counseling, a spiritual retreat to rekindle that love. Time wasted cannot be recovered"

Tuesday, July 9, 2013

Why i decided to become a Beachbody coach

Here is the main reason why i became a Team Beachbody Coach.

I missed my workout yesterday so i did double today my legs are on fire!!

I have been drinking Shakeology ON and OFF for almost a year, then my doctor asked my top stop it because she didn't know what was in it...I DIDN'T LISTEN because i didn't know what was on the pain meds anyway and they were making me FAT!

Monday, July 8, 2013

"9 "Health" Foods That Can Fool You -

While delicious by mid–20th century Midwestern standards, it wasn't nearly as calorie-restrictive as you'd think when compared to the chicken-fried steak and baked potato my dad was eating across the table. Still, the perception was that this was diet food, most likely because each element in the Diet Plate had a vague resemblance to another healthier foodstuff (except the hamburger, that is).
It'd be nice to think we've transcended the South Dakota Diet Plate. Sadly, this isn't the case. Even today, there are dozens of foods we fool ourselves into thinking are healthful when in truth they do nothing but pad our hips and arteries. Here are 9 of the worst offenders on your grocery store shelves.

Check all the foods here

Brown rice, Why is healthier than white rice

 The difference between brown rice and white rice is not just color! A whole grain of rice has several layers. Only the outermost layer, the hull, is removed to produce what we call brown rice. This process is the least damaging to the nutritional value of the rice and avoids the unnecessary loss of nutrients that occurs with further processing. If brown rice is further milled to remove the bran and most of the germ layer, the result is a whiter rice, but also a rice that has lost many more nutrients. At this point, however, the rice is still unpolished, and it takes polishing to produce the white rice we are used to seeing. Polishing removes the aleurone layer of the grain--a layer filled with health-supportive, essential fats. Because these fats, once exposed to air by the refining process, are highly susceptible to oxidation, this layer is removed to extend the shelf life of the product. The resulting white rice is simply a refined starch that is largely bereft of its original nutrients.

Brown rice

Save Hundreds At The Grocery Store | Dani Johnson

 One place people waste a lot of money is the grocery store. And you probably don’t even know it! Look, over the past several years I have seen and heard it all. It always shocks me when people tell me how much they spend at the grocery store and act like it is normal. “Oh I only spend like two hundred dollars a week.”
Uh, HELLO, my family of six (plus dinner guests) survives just fine on one hundred a week at the grocery store. Wouldn’t you love to find where that other hundred dollars (or more) goes and have an extra four hundred or more in your pocket every month?

Save Hundreds At The Grocery Store | Dani Johnson

Sunday, July 7, 2013

My thoughts on Vanilla Shakeology®

I must admit i was addicted to the Chocolate Shakeology® until the Vanilla flavor came out, oh my god! it is delicious! If you are Dominican than you know what a Morirsoñando(die-dreaming) is and Yes! you can make it with the Vanilla Shakeology® it is ahhhhhmazing!! I also drink it with Almond milk and it taste like Dominican Avena, again it is ahhhhmazing!! Shakeology® has changed me, i feel energized, my tummy is not bloated, i don't have heartburn and just feel like myself again THANK GOD!! I thought i was turning into an Alien, i hated everything around me and i was tired, miserable and gaining weight. I felt like a balloon like someone was pumping air into me, every day i was fatter! Thanks DOC! and say that because the Doctor kept giving me medication for my pain even when i told her i gained 20lbs in 3 months like really! So i gave up my medication and became a faithful Shakeology® drinker! Click to order Shakeology

T25 Double Friday Day 5

So i took Saturday off honestly i needed a break, my emotional state is not the greatest but i keep pushing myself!...I got caught up with my team today I did double Friday on a Sunday! :) I must say i felt like i was dying in the middle of it, i wanted to quit but Shaun T kept saying come on you can do this! and i did yeiiiiii!! I'm so happy i decided to this workout is only 25 minutes but it will make you sweat like a pig. I've been drinking my Shakeology 30 minutes before my workouts and i find that it gives me strength so i will continue to do so for the next five weeks unless of course i get sick. I'm down 6lbs this week so I'm super, super happy!! I haven't had any pain medication for my Fibromyalgia which is awesome! I've had some pain in my right arm but I've managed without medication the doc said i have arthritis in that arm.(Whatever)lol Anyway...I wish i could tell you how much i weight but im keeping that a secret until the end of my 90 days! I have to! I'm actually afraid to tell people how i weight because i don't look it but my butt alone is like 50lbs...Dominican butts!! Can you see the sweat!

Friday, July 5, 2013

T25 Total Body Circuit Day 4

This is the work out i was supposed to do yesterday and I'm glad i messed up because I'm sure tomorrow i will be feeling it and is Saturday so i don't have to move from the house :) You can join me in this journey of total change of Body, Mind and Soul. Just ask me how! I will keep you motivated!

Thursday, July 4, 2013

T25 Abs Interval

 Sooo I didn't look at my schedule and did the wrong workout today but it was awesome!!...
25 minutes of pure craziness!! Love it!

UPDATE- The energy i have today is unbelievable in just two weeks I've changed my pain medication from morning and night to as needed, I've lost 4lbs with a proper diet and Shakeology®. In addition I'm amazed that I've survived Focus T25 with Shaun T for three days in a row without feeling severe pain or quitting ( i have insanity for almost two years and quit at the first workout a few times). These are just the first signs of what i have envision for myself a Healthy Body, Mind and Soul! and amazingly my mental fog is better!...sometimes i would forget simple things like my birthday or my girls name ( i will call them by each others name lol)

Wednesday, July 3, 2013

Insisto! mi problema soy YO!

Mi YO!

Mi problema soy yo...
Porque soy exigente, porque espero mas de la cuenta...
Porque cojo las cosas muy en serio...
Porque amo sin medidas...porque me entrego con el alma
Porque miro el mundo a mi manera...
Porque me enojo facil...
Porque no perdono traiciones...

Mi problema so YO...
Porque asi fui creciendo y con las expericiencias aprendiendo...
desde nina siempre eh tenido la misma manera de ver el mundo...
Siempre eh querido triunfar en lo que sea...

Mi problema soy YO...
Porque aveces ni yo misma me entiendo...
Porque pienso que todo el que pasa por mi vida es sincero(a)...
Porque sobreprotejo mis hijas...sabiendo que puede ser malo...
Porque me niego a creer que sere infeliz toda una vida...

Talvez mi problema termine cuando YO, me muera...Talves no tenga remedio...
Mientras tanto como resuelvo este YO, que se niega a vivir la vida como
todos...que se niega a creer en la maldad de la gente...
Que cree en el amor, en lo bonito, en la amistad, la sinceridad y la honestidad?
Mil veces me eh repetido lo mismo no cojas las cosas tan apecho, no te cojas las cosas tan enserio...vive la vida dia a dia...pensando en el manana pero teniendo en mente que lo que se vive es el presente pues manana talvez no llegara!

Yo soy mi problema y lo acepto...y muchas veces cuando lo comparto con alguien parece que se asustan...le tiene miedo a una mujer como yo...que puede brindar mucho amor pero tambien puede actuar asi como YO!...

Focus T25 Day 2

You can join me in this challenge...just ask me how!

Focus T25 Day 1

Follow me on my journey to get a Healthy Body, Mind and Soul!